WHAT A COINCIDENCE.

I SHOULD'VE FIGURED she'd pull somethin like this outta her ass. i got an email from amy about an hour ago (maybe shorter) and she said she had a cold and didn't wanna spread it to me, so she had to delay our meeting. that might be more acceptable if i didn't tell the apartment in Concord that i'd get back to them about when i can sign the papers for the apartment lease AFTER i spoke to my trustee about when i could get a plane ticket and arrangements to do so. IF I DON'T GET THIS DAMN APARTMENT- I'M SWITCHING BANKS THAT CONTROL MY DAMN TRUST. she can ALWAYS either get someone else to fill in for her or wear a damn mask (similar to the ones everyone had to wear during covid and they wear them now if they have covid not to spread the covid). i feel like brian was sick once and he got someone else to meet with me. back when i actually had a trustee who did their damn JOB. it's a little fucking coincidental that she gets sick and tells me at the last damn minute that she can't make it to an important meeting which determines if and when i get to move. IT'S OKAY THOUGH AMY- NO ONE GIVES A DAMN ABOUT ME SO YOU CAN DO WTF YOU WANT!! RIGHT?! WRONG. I WILL MAKE SURE I GET WHERE I WANT AND NOT JUST WHEN IT'S CONVENIENT FOR YOU, AMANDA, OR MY OTHER CARELESS FAMILY (EXCEPT JOE). EVEN IF IT TAKES YOU LOSING YOUR FUCKING JOB. i speak to my psychologist tomorrow and YOU BETTER BELIEVE SHE'S GONNA HEAR ABOUT THIS BUT I'M ACTUALLY SO UPSET THAT I CAN'T EVEN EAT ANYMORE (THE UGARI THAT DIDN'T FALL ON THE FLOOR WHEN I ACCIDENTALLY JUST DROPPED IT AFTER WARMING IT IN THE MICROWAVE). i don't have an appetite. i'm not sure if it's because i'm so upset because the amount of ugari that i DID eat won't fill me up. abdul even asked me if i had something else to eat and got me a protein shake out- which i haven't drank more than half of it. i'm starting to understand how my grandma went without eating for days because when you get upset, your body naturally doesn't feel hungry.. or mine doesn't anyway- although my head is sorta starting to hurt now.